Ch. 2: Hunt or Be Hunted

The Grand Job Search. Thought the phrase was a myth, but I have been mistakenly wrong to think of it as that. I have warned you and don't say I never told you, The Job Search is no Myth. It is practically battle of the fittest and hey, I don't usually use cliches, but this cliche just seemed right to use. It has been 2 months and I scrolled up and down, job after job looking for my chance to rightfully pursue my dreams. I've already been to you simplyhired, your indeed and monster. Nothing seems to jump at me and command & conqueror me. Its no simply hire and its a monster of a task to find your future job.

Its like I'm on a safari with lets say 100 men, all wanting to shoot and kill their first elephant. The task of taking down such an animal is far greater than anyone's imagine and to think we all have to compete against each other makes this much more than a task, it makes it a competition of a lifetime. Once one of us has spotted the beast, it will not go unnoticed and if you fail to kill it, you've already lost your chance. I ask myself, what makes you a better hunter than all the rest? Its not what you will do to kill the elephant, but its likely more what skills do you have to take down the prey. Confidence also could come into play and direct us toward are you the Predator or the prey, but that would be too much of a cliche.

Locking down our confidence and focusing on the prey with our cross hairs will bring us to think, is this it? Am I suppose to kill this now or do I wait for something bigger? This elephant is only a baby and would I let everyone know that I'm seeking out to settle for a baby of a task? My job is not going to be childish. I never said I didn't want to make children films, but how am I suppose to reach something I already know I can do? There has to be people out there like me who have the same mindset, they think the job would be a perfect fit for their skills. They seem to be set on having this job and only this job.

Thats why when you are the first to find the mammoth, its best to think and see how others react. The pressure of killing the mammoth of a job in one shot, is disastrous. DON'T be the first to shoot, be the second, third, heck even tenth. Just stay away from number one, people with no talent go number one because they need to make sure their eagerness overshadows their lack of skills.

We just need to be confident, in ourselves, our abilities and with the employer. They will know the best fit for the position. You may never land a job on your first shot. That only means your waiting for bigger and better opportunity in the game of life.

Ch. 1: Dreamers of My Dream

There is so much more to life then wanting a career, but honestly God wants me to use my abilities and talents for something that is greater. I use to dream a lot. As a kid, my imagination had no bounds and seeing the world just one step at a time, stirred up my imagination. I still visualize things in my head from time to time. Mostly I visualize creating new things and imagining if I did them. I keep asking myself, if my dream is too impossible or not for God? I don't think God would give me talent to waste. I would proudly do something with my talent that is in the eyes of God, I wouldn't use it against him.

Its hard to hear that your dream is not practical. To think that dreams are fairy tales and they can never happen, saddens me. The world has lost their own imagination. Our country was built on people with new ideas and seeing how they could change the world. My grandpa today dropped off a letter for me, inside was $500 and a message that said this, "We are so proud of you and we know you will impact the world someday with your great talent and imagination." I thanked him privately. Grandpa told me he was very impressed with what I've done with my talent, he can't wait to see me achieve my dream. It feels good to know that others believe in me too.

God should be the one who receives all praise. I say this now, but I know I will be tempted. Hollywood stars take all the glory and never give it back to the one who gave them their talent. How are they glorifying God everyday? Do they take all the praise? I hope I don't fall into the state of pride. I'm only here because God loves me and wanted me to love him back. He should be the reason why I live and he should be the reason why you live too. Otherwise we've wasted our talents.

 God is the dreamer of my dreams and those dreams will come real someday. Just have to hold on and have faith. God always comes around.

The 2nd Chapter: Intermission

It feels weird being back in the town that I despised as a young high school senior. I was so glad to leave this town, but its weird how I've ended up here again. I don't know how to interact in this environment, my mind and heart is still lost in Fargo. Its not like Fargo was an amazing city, but the speed and the non stop pace was nice. New Ulm is such a still town, quiet like its 5,000 elderly population.

I wake up in the morning, there is milk, bananas, and bread. Even leftovers in the fridge for my lunch. Everything feels given to me and I would rather be on my own. After graduation aren't you suppose to feel like you've achieved something? I feel stuck, knowledge I thought I had isn't there. I feel like I'm almost at step 1 of 1000. Life has hit the wall that won't budge, im trapped in a town I dislike.

The job has come and is to start soon, which will be nice. Hopefully it picks up the pace of this summer before us. All I have to remember is that this part of my life is going to be a low point. I have so much to look forward to. The first chapter of each new beginning in one person's life starts slow and eventually picks up. I just need to find my spot in life.