Chapter 37: Forgotten Dweller

Her laugh penetrates my ears that are already bleeding. I dreamed of her last night and the image of her smile and laugh has branded my mind. Still healing, but maybe I'm not, maybe I'm bleeding out in pain. I know that laugh will never be mine, Satan has invaded my dreams and the desire has been planted, I long for peace. I need to get the fuck out, which door is closer and will make me escape here faster? I want to just be free. This running away is endless and my feet are no longer sore, they bleed. The kicks I had are long gone and forgotten, I'm just skin and bones. I bleed inside and out and forgot what sleep feels like. To sink in soft space and gaze into blackness is alien to me. My sights never clearer and my lungs never thicker. All is just a devil's dream, controlled and replaying the failures and wrong doings. Desiring her is more now and I know its not God. For God wants me to stay pure and clear of her innocence because I haven't dwelled among the pure for quite sometime.

Windows 8 Commerical

Hey readers, I would like to take a small break from the chapters and give you a little sneak peak of what I've been up to lately. I did a commercial for Microsoft on the new Windows 8 Phone, check it out and see! Video Below:

I hope you enjoy and I will come out with the next chapter in a few weeks. Lots of stuff has been going on and I have to organize my thoughts.

Chapter 36: The Days are Running Out

I never thought I would see the day that would go so fast that its already the next. Best friend's birthday has come and gone, now its just another week. Days go by way too fast and I can hardly do anything with it. Have you ever played the Sims? All you do is create a life for your sim and the days go by fast and they grow up and get married and have kids etc. I think sometimes if the day is going to go fast, at least give me excitement or reason to go onto the day. Time is running out and I don't know what to say to her. She won't return my text messages and we only see each other to say hi, thats all. Its like you know this one is the right one because she makes you feel happier and glad to be yourself. To her is the best thing thats has happened.

Its these nights though that last way too long and I have second thoughts about this crush I have. I become serious and realize that life doesn't always go your way. I'm filled in with wants and a feeling that makes people laugh when they hear it. Is it real? I want to find out before my days here at college run out and I never get to see if there is something here.

I feel my heart is walking on thin ice and its about to crack. I'm going to go nub from the ice cold water.